The debate roars on about stem cell research, and also the causes of autism. But what I am interested in is stim research. I want to know how it makes Nat feel to open and close his hand and make sounds like, "Whooo," and "Heem," and every now and then, a "real" word (i.e., one that I understand, NT-centric that I am). Today he suddenly said,"No ants." I looked at him and said, "No ants" in a room full of people talking, very quietly. He looked right at me and repeated it, then he grimaced. He shut his eyes tight and looked like he was in pain -- because of me? Because of what I said? I agree, though. NO ANTS! Why can't we share that? What's so bad about my joining in?
I just want to connect with him. Why does it always have to be HIS way?
Just kidding. But really. At least he went in the ocean with me today, holding hands. And smiling his head off as the wave broke against his bony chest.