Susan Senator

A packed, busy day. But to my disappointment, busy does not equal happy. I woke up far too early (5a.m.) and I’ve just been running all day. I had to give a talk today and I don’t feel that I did a good job. I felt that my talk was stale because so much has happened since that slide show I made. I felt more cynical, mature, and also protective of my boys’ lives. I don’t know what that means. It is hard to look at the beginning of their lives and go through it all, up until now. It is so hard. Sometimes putting words to things/people freezes them and makes them less than what or who they really are.

Maybe because I’m tired, I am not happy today. So I tried to think about my party and my costumes, the things that will always make me bubble up again. I made this tabblo mostly for Ned to help me decide which one is the best/favorite. I sent it to him at work but he wouldn’t even look at it! And then he left late. 🙁

Not making dinner.

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