{"id":1180,"date":"2006-11-13T12:09:00","date_gmt":"2006-11-13T12:09:00","guid":{"rendered":"http:\/\/susansenator.com\/blog2\/2006\/11\/the-ides-of-november\/"},"modified":"2006-11-13T12:09:00","modified_gmt":"2006-11-13T12:09:00","slug":"the-ides-of-november","status":"publish","type":"post","link":"https:\/\/susansenator.com\/blog\/2006\/11\/the-ides-of-november\/","title":{"rendered":"The Ides of November"},"content":{"rendered":"<p>I feel like I have to be bravest<br \/>on your birthday<br \/>I&#8217;m not supposed to be sad<br \/>that&#8217;s selfish<br \/>and unevolved<br \/>and not seeing the whole picture<\/p>\n<p>But I am.<br \/>I stood in the bookstore<br \/>amidst strollers, sippy cups, board books<br \/>plump new mothers stretched over pink new children<br \/>Tears slipped out, wet anguish on my embarrassed face<\/p>\n<p>Still here<br \/>The baby books<br \/>The ocean books<br \/>The swimming books<br \/>Bubbles<br \/>Disney vids<\/p>\n<p>Still sad<br \/>About what I don&#8217;t get<br \/>What you don&#8217;t get<\/p>\n<p>The search for something<br \/>The anger, deep in my throat,<br \/>that it is not there<\/p>\n<p>************************************************<\/p>\n","protected":false},"excerpt":{"rendered":"<p>I feel like I have to be braveston your birthdayI&#8217;m not supposed to be sadthat&#8217;s selfishand unevolvedand not seeing the whole picture But I am.I stood in the bookstoreamidst strollers, sippy cups, board booksplump new mothers stretched over pink new childrenTears slipped out, wet anguish on my embarrassed face Still hereThe baby booksThe ocean booksThe [&hellip;]<\/p>\n","protected":false},"author":2,"featured_media":0,"comment_status":"open","ping_status":"open","sticky":false,"template":"","format":"standard","meta":{"jetpack_post_was_ever_published":false,"_jetpack_newsletter_access":"","_jetpack_dont_email_post_to_subs":false,"_jetpack_newsletter_tier_id":0,"_jetpack_memberships_contains_paywalled_content":false,"_jetpack_memberships_contains_paid_content":false,"footnotes":"","jetpack_publicize_message":"","jetpack_publicize_feature_enabled":true,"jetpack_social_post_already_shared":false,"jetpack_social_options":{"image_generator_settings":{"template":"highway","default_image_id":0,"font":"","enabled":false},"version":2}},"categories":[1],"tags":[],"class_list":["post-1180","post","type-post","status-publish","format-standard","hentry","category-uncategorized"],"jetpack_publicize_connections":[],"jetpack_featured_media_url":"","jetpack_sharing_enabled":true,"jetpack_shortlink":"https:\/\/wp.me\/pSTth-j2","jetpack_likes_enabled":true,"jetpack-related-posts":[],"_links":{"self":[{"href":"https:\/\/susansenator.com\/blog\/wp-json\/wp\/v2\/posts\/1180","targetHints":{"allow":["GET"]}}],"collection":[{"href":"https:\/\/susansenator.com\/blog\/wp-json\/wp\/v2\/posts"}],"about":[{"href":"https:\/\/susansenator.com\/blog\/wp-json\/wp\/v2\/types\/post"}],"author":[{"embeddable":true,"href":"https:\/\/susansenator.com\/blog\/wp-json\/wp\/v2\/users\/2"}],"replies":[{"embeddable":true,"href":"https:\/\/susansenator.com\/blog\/wp-json\/wp\/v2\/comments?post=1180"}],"version-history":[{"count":0,"href":"https:\/\/susansenator.com\/blog\/wp-json\/wp\/v2\/posts\/1180\/revisions"}],"wp:attachment":[{"href":"https:\/\/susansenator.com\/blog\/wp-json\/wp\/v2\/media?parent=1180"}],"wp:term":[{"taxonomy":"category","embeddable":true,"href":"https:\/\/susansenator.com\/blog\/wp-json\/wp\/v2\/categories?post=1180"},{"taxonomy":"post_tag","embeddable":true,"href":"https:\/\/susansenator.com\/blog\/wp-json\/wp\/v2\/tags?post=1180"}],"curies":[{"name":"wp","href":"https:\/\/api.w.org\/{rel}","templated":true}]}}