I’m up at 5am because I had a dream, though I can’t quite remember it.\u00a0 I noticed the phone was flashing, as it does when there’s been a call.\u00a0 I pressed the buttons to see who had called and I saw that Nat’s House was on there, at 12am.\u00a0 What did that mean?\u00a0 I called them, and an overnight staff person answered.\u00a0 He told me that no one called and that everything was alright.<\/p>\n
I was embarrassed, so I hung up.\u00a0 I don’t know what this means.\u00a0 Why would there be this mistake?<\/p>\n
No reason, I guess.\u00a0 But of course the thought flashed through my head that this was some sort of Sign.\u00a0 My 5am brain was tormenting me with the “what if it were Nat calling to tell me something?”\u00a0 And now, as the sky is starting to blue up, I realize that my brain is tired, there was a phone glitch.\u00a0 But it occurs to me also there’s something here to acknowledge, something of a wish in there, because it would mean that Nat had reached out to tell me something, period.\u00a0 I want him to be okay, happy, healthy.\u00a0 But — there it is:\u00a0 that old old ghost, reminding me that I may just want more than that.<\/p>\n","protected":false},"excerpt":{"rendered":"
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