I often feel troubled by not understanding Nat and his state of mind.\u00a0 I do not believe in my heart that what you see is what you get. I wish I could. People say, “If he doesn’t seem unhappy, he’s not.” Yes, but no. Sometimes I am not satisfied with that. So here is what I want to ask him:<\/p>\n
1) Do you understand what I say when I speak normally?<\/p>\n
2) If so, do you feel bad when I adapt what I’m saying to a simpler language?<\/p>\n
3) Do you know that I respect you, no matter how I talk to you?<\/p>\n
4) Are you lonely?<\/p>\n
5) Do you feel left out when everyone around you is talking? Or maybe you’re used to it by now?<\/p>\n
6) Do you understand why we are planning your life without really asking you how you feel about it?<\/p>\n
7) Do you wish that you and Ben were close?<\/p>\n
8) Do you feel Max reaching out in his quiet wispy way?<\/p>\n
9) What do you want for your birthday?<\/p>\n
10) Have you ever been abused?<\/p>\n
And so today I had a bad moment on my bike ride, a real heart bruise, when I thought of these, and I wanted you to let me know, somehow. But I know you can’t, and so I have to live with that.<\/p>\n","protected":false},"excerpt":{"rendered":"
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