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Thursday, March 30, 2006

Picking Up the Pieces

I have been having a horrible day, one of my worst in a while. Still having trouble with one particular friend (INF) and I still care too much merely to let it go. But I think I have done everything I can to make things better in that regard, and now it is up to INF to figure out how to make things work. I have kind of drawn a line in the sand. I had to, to protect myself. I kept getting hurt.

I had posted a blog entry that read “Top Ten Reasons My Life Sucks” but I have since taken it down. My life doesn’t suck; some things about today did.

Through all this, this horrible, cruelly beautiful day (68 degrees and sunny), Ned has been in touch with me — in his quiet way. Through I.M: “I Love You,” he wrote at one point. Then, on the phone, 6p.m: “Coming home. We going out?We going to have fun?”
“I’ll try,” I said. We had decided to go out to dinner once we realized we did not have to attend a certain school function.

So now, I’m going to put some chicken nuggets up for the boys and put on some makeup and cover up these damned puffy eyes. I’m going to get dressed up and go out with my first love, still with me after almost 25 years, and remember to thank God for this life, as bumpy and crushing as it gets.
Here we are at a happier moment, the Green Room at the Today Show

posted at 6:02 pm 3 comments

3 comments

I hope you will feel better soon and that you had a fun evening, puffy eyes and all.

There is a reason for everything, they say.

— added by Estee Klar-Wolfond on Thursday, March 30, 2006 at 9:09 pm

You are allowed days like this (even if we don’t want them). Sorry so yucky. The best is yet to come. You are a great mom, wife, advocate and author.

Can’t wait to hear you in Minneapolis. PS- I really appreciated you e-mailing me back about your opinion on meds. We have started Sam on Clonidine at our doctors suggestion, and have finally seen him sleep a week straight of evenings for the first time. School even has mentioned seeing a change. Thanks so much. Please hang in there.

Good friends are hard to lose, but true friends are never lost. It is in the other court now. Let go and let God!!!

— added by Laura Cottington on Thursday, March 30, 2006 at 11:57 pm

Hi,

I also hope you feel better soon and that some kind of something gets resolved between and you and your friend.

— added by Camille on Friday, March 31, 2006 at 2:26 am