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Wednesday, February 28, 2007

On Mommies and Mermaids

More about bellydance; sorry. I always feel a little guilty blogging about bellydance because I wonder if so many of my readers are just looking for autism stories, news about Nat? (And yes, nasty Anonymous has told me as much, but all I can say is, don’t read me then!) But Nat’s always in my head; I keep a lot in my head and sometimes need to clear it and dance is the way. (Except that I’ll say that we had a sad little thing happen last night. I was giving out grapes to the boys at dinner time. A little background: I had just announced that Ned and I were going out to dinner, just the two of us. As I was pulling apart the stems my hand jerked away and connected with Nat’s jaw. He was instantly furious. I didn’t blame him. “Ah, I’m so sorry Nat! Oh Darling!”

But he was so mad he started deeply biting his arm (presumably more painful than the bump I gave him but of course anger is not rational) and then lunging for me. Then Ned. Nat was easy to contain; we just stroked his arms and had him sit down on the floor, and I kept repeating that it was an accident and that I was sorry. I tried to explain how it had happened so that he would understand I had not intended to hurt him! Oh, another circle of Hell exists for Mommies who hurt their children!!!!!

I think he was also upset that we were going out. We stayed home a good long while to get the boys through dinner and to make sure Nat was feeling okay again. He and I hugged, and although he was shaking with emotion, he did not try to hurt me again.)

So things were okay. Later on, I was feeling somehow too full — from dinner and the day’s drek, that I was either going to go to bed at 9, or dance. And because all afternoon I had been sewing that green costume, I knew I was going to have to try it all on.

Ooh, la la! C’etait magnifique! The rocaille fringe was gorgeous and the new silver sequin layer looked wonderful. I was so incredibly psyched to see this creation of my own and to be able to wear it! (Although it is pinned only still on one side and I have to finish off all of the edges.) Plus the color was a dream. Ben and Ned both said at different times that I looked like a mermaid in it! That is true; the sequins sometimes seem scale-like and the straight skirt is sea-green and like a tail. This will color how I dance with it: my choreography will be water-like and flowy.

I danced to about an hour’s worth of Bellydance Superstars Live at the Folies Bergere DVD, and because I do that so often, the choreography was very familiar. I found I could do a lot of what they were doing, in the Egyptian Nights number. I finally mastered the large hip circle traveling step!

The whole thing felt wonderful and looked wonderful. Then, at the very end, when I did my spin and finish, one arm up in the air, my hip scarf slid down to the floor! At least my skirt stayed on! I picked it up, smiling, pretending it had happened in a real performance, and acting, of course, like it was all part of the act!

Here, for your viewing enjoyment, is my absolute favorite bellydancer, Sonia, doing a drum solo that I can now do, too (thanks to Michelle Dove for the You Tube clip). Second photo by Ben Batchelder.


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I say blog about whatever you want! You have to write about what’s present in your mind- and who cares about nasty Anon? I like to hear about both Nat and belly dancing. I like to hear about your family stuff because every family is so different in so many ways, and it is always interesting to hear about the differences. I also like to read about Nat because my lawyer-bosslady does a lot of IEPs, autistic and special ed cases and it’s always neat to see something from a different perspective. I like also to read about the belly dancing because I can’t belly dance in the city I’m at (way too small) so I have to be content with bodyjam and reading your blog! And seeing your beautiful costumes and learning about your fab moves. *sighs with jealousy*

P.S. I think your costume-top looks SO goregous!

— added by I Wax Poetic on Wednesday, February 28, 2007 at 10:27 am

I would so fall over. That was beautiful to watch, the dangly bits on her costume really emphasizes the control she’s able to exert. You’re going to do well with your recital, so rock on.

Accidents, like the one you describe are surprisingly not that challenging for Jared. We do the same thing you describe, repeating ‘accident’ and apologizing, but it is one of the few situations that he calms relatively easily.

Is Ben in charge when you guys go out? How is Nat while your out of the house? Jared will sometimes go to the door and watch for his Dad or me.

I agree with Tamsen, post what you please. It gives me hope that I may one day have an outside interest.

— added by Lisa on Wednesday, February 28, 2007 at 12:02 pm

You always say such kind things, to both Nat and me! Thanks for always going to his blog. He is always eager to hear people’s comments (just like his mom), and he has a thicker skin! 🙂

— added by Susan Senator on Wednesday, February 28, 2007 at 4:25 pm

How do you know you would fall over? I say try it!!! And then let me know if you fell over or if you totally loved it!

Ben does not babysit, he is 8. Max babysits; he is just about 15! Though Ben is getting there. He understands Nat really well. When we are gone, Nat is fine, because he understands what our going out means and that we will be back at such and such a time.

— added by Susan Senator on Wednesday, February 28, 2007 at 4:27 pm

I was given my Girl Scout dancing badge mostly because of perfect attendence. In high school our dance teacher told us if we got an exchange correctly we could leave early – all eyes turned to me, and in unison the other girls told me “get it right!”

I have been given many gifts, the gift of rhythym is not one of them. I accept, and greatly appreciate others abilities, and that’s how I know you will do well, because you clearly love it.

I’m hoping to get back to beach volleyball, and even though I’ve been saying that for at least 5 years, I would like to make it happen this year. Keeping my fingers crossed.

— added by Lisa on Wednesday, February 28, 2007 at 5:49 pm

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