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Saturday, October 27, 2012

Let’s Dance

Every now and then, I realize that our society still has a long way to go in terms of dealing with the difference that is autism. I was at a party very recently, and we’d brought Nat, fresh from his Halloween dance with his basketball team and social group friends. He was dressed as James Bond/Tom Cruise and he looked fantastic. Ned and I went out to dinner with friends and then we picked Nat up from his party and took him to ours — a dance party with friends and neighbors.

Nat was in fine fettle. He stationed himself near the snack table, in the back room where Ned and I were mingling with old and new friends. Nat was flapping a bit, talking to himself in his own language, and smiling a lot. He loves parties.

I felt so proud of him, in his black tux and white bowtie and slicked-back hair. He was gorgeous. He was happy. And we didn’t even think for a moment that we had to look out for him in terms of “behaviors.” That’s how far he’s come. Not only does he “behave” himself at parties; he actually loves them.

Yet, still, a friend and neighbor came up to me and asked if Nat was “alright.” She is a lovely woman whom I’ve known for years, and so I was alert the moment she asked. I looked over at Nat who was doing his flappy happy thing. I said, “Yeah! He loves parties. Why?”

“Oh, well, he seemed kind of agitated before. Really agitated.”

I gestured at him with my head, saying, “Oh, like that? Shaking his hands, smiling?”

“No. He wasn’t smiling. I was worried. But if you tell me he’s fine, then I won’t be.”

I patted her arm and said, “He’s fine. He hasn’t been agitated around people in years.” But as I said it, my stomach turned a little. Not because I was remembering those days, but because I was explaining and reassuring someone about Nat. When here he was, in his element, at a dance party in his own home neighborhood, looking so happy and beautiful. And yet there is still this level of malaise others have around him, and even the most well-intentioned among us still have the power, unknowingly, to cause pain.  We left shortly after, but not until I had a really good, bouncing dance with Nat.

4 comments

So happy you didn’t leave before you had that good, bouncing dance with Nat!
I get some of those comments too – sometimes from my sons’ father or his gf and other family members – and when my 9 yr old daughter is around to over hear – she looks at me, rolls her eyes and says to me quietly, “Really? Really, mom? – can’t they see (Nolan or Ethan) is happy, is fine?” Then she gives whichever brother it was said about a big hug and looks at me to say “Why don’t people get it?”
Nora and I have a saying – when we’re dealing with too much, or we can’t deal with those comments – we say to each other – “I see you, I see you, I see you.” It helps.

— added by Linda on Saturday, October 27, 2012 at 11:46 pm

LOVE the photo! All 3 of you look dapper!

— added by Linda on Saturday, October 27, 2012 at 11:47 pm

Old ways of seeing “okay” behavior are truly deeply embedded in the minds people. But while our society still has a long way to go, we are getting there one step at a time, or if you will– one bounce, one dance step at a time. You among many amazing parents are making sure of that. 🙂

— added by An Margaret Abanes on Sunday, October 28, 2012 at 4:14 am

Great pictures!

— added by Suzette on Sunday, October 28, 2012 at 11:41 am

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