What is your life like?
Is it good to be you?
Is good the absence of pain,
or is good better than anything I know?
What do you dream about,
If you don’t have words
Do you see pictures,
flowing together, or discretely
or just feel feelings
but what is that like for you?
Do you want to be left alone
or am I supposed to gently force togetherness
until you really want it
or until you are used to it?
Have I done it right?
Have I loved you right?
Is there something you would want if
you could tell me?
I’d do it, you know
I think you know.
I think I know
when I see you smile secretly
talking quietly to yourself
your own jokes
your own language
the way you wait up for me when I’m late
and let me kiss your softly bearded face
child man
mini man
boy of my heart
child of my dreams
4 comments
omg I wish I could think of these things in a way that I can write them down, Susan. What a gift you have. I like you. I hope I can one day treat you the way you deserve, as I think you are like my husband in a lot of ways, and I am not sure I have figured out that Libra. I have a costume idea for you. Ever watch Family Business? Revealing show. HBO, I think.
Thanks, T — You are a friend from far away. I appreciate all your thoughts. Let me know about the costume! I want another! Maybe I could commission one from you?
What a wonderful post, great questions. I would often silently ask, “what is it you see?” or “what is making you smile?”. I sincerely hope that someday and in some way you have those questions answered.
This is freaking beautiful…I am right there with you on this one…in true susan/Kristen fashion- I will remind you that you may think some of these things about your nuerotypical children.