Susan Senator
All happy families are not alike...
All happy families are not alike...
A Mother’s Grief
A bullet of grief
Burst through my head
Blood and tears
As I lay on my bed.
In my mirror
A picture of you
You look like you’re trying so hard
It’s just what you do
And then I thought
“Do you want to talk?
Is it that you just can’t?”
And my heart stopped
My face in my hands
I could not bear
That you might want to
And all of these years
It’s what you can’t do
Dad had that dream
You were talking to him
He said it was real
But he was crying
Lying here still
My hand on my heart
I want to tell you
It’s okay, be who you are
But if you are not happy
If life is too hard
I want to know that
Though it tears me apart
I will do anything
A piece of my brain?
I don’t need you normal
But just ease your pain.
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I get this, I feel this, maybe not in the way you do but in a very similar way.
Sue; Does this mean you’re becoming a curebie? I have that dream too but I act on it and help my kid. I knew we’d get through to some of you.
*hugs*
I can think of nothing poignant to say… so I’m just going to give you a hug.
Frustraiing? Yes.
I totally relate to this. ((hugs))
I think teaching Nat to type words to express himself would be the way to go next. Give him “a way to speak”, if you feel he can’t do it with a physical voice. There are many other ways to communicate besides speaking with a physical voice. If Nat is reading I’m sure he could learn to type. I hate to hear such despair over something that is not hopeless…I think he really needs a “form” of expression, and you are really needing to communicate with him through whatever “form” works for him.