Susan's Blog

Wednesday, November 5, 2008

Still


I have a little boy.
What luck! Such a good idea, to wait 6 years.
I, surrounded by mountainous men.
still get
The slightly chubby hand
Dimples instead of knuckles
Regular use of bandaids
Farty noises
I still can
Make him happy with a surprise cookie
Kiss his head that smells like pencils
Tuck him in
But not in front of anyone
Only when he loses the prickly boy shell
And starts to soften with sleep.
Breath still sweet
Adorable small feet
About to burst into a pubescent terror
Pizza face, girl ambivalence
But until then
He’s just my Ben.

posted at 8:12 pm 2 comments

2 comments

oh my gosh, this was so beautiful.

right now i’m writing a story about my brother’s autism, he’s 24 and I’m 21 and I will soon have guardianship. ANYWAY.
This was so wonderful.
Thank you.

— added by Kelly on Thursday, November 6, 2008 at 1:32 am

Beautiful.

I have a little boy too. Sigh.

— added by Michelle O'Neil on Saturday, November 8, 2008 at 9:05 am