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Wednesday, January 21, 2009

Melts in Your Mouth

I really like what Sue said to me in the comments of the previous post. It really is so true that we take for granted the things that we have. She said, “I’m just glad to be standing up and breathing.” Somehow, that statement made me feel really happy.

I went out with an old friend tonight for dinner. She was the first person I befriended whose kid was on the Spectrum, so we have been friends for about fifteen years. I took her out for her birthday. We talked about our bodies, and what’s going on, (and laughed a lot), and I had that Sue’s words in my head. I thought, “I am almost 50, God dammit! It is crazy, simply crazy, to put all this energy into face or body. Things really start to fall apart in a serious way sooner or later and we have to focus on what makes us happy.

So here’s what makes me happy today: I finished my first draft of Book II. I put in the last of my interviews, and I like the Epilogue. Jeez.

Another thing: In my bellydance class today, two different women said to me, “You’re really good! I could follow what you were doing just as much as the teacher!” NO ONE has ever told me that, in these 3 years of studying BD. Yow.

And yet another: I got this funny thing in the mail today from my sister: two bags of customized M&Ms;, printed with the words, “i 8 the outside,” and “u 8 the inside.” Maybe I never blogged this (can it be so?) but when we were little, Laura used to suck on the outside of an M&M; and eat the colored shell, and give me the insides, which were warm and soft (which actually brings out the sweetness of the chocolate even more). Shut up, this is what sisters do. I’m so glad I have a sister who knows me so well, and who still makes me laugh.

A good day. Dumb blog post, good day.


Good for you! I hope that you had dessert. It goes well with laughter and a loyal friend who loves you unconditionally.
Congratulations on achieving your writing goal and being the belly dancing champ of the day! Not bad for 50 hey!

— added by Sue on Thursday, January 22, 2009 at 12:27 am

Thanks, Sue! But remember, I’m 4 years away from 50…

— added by Susan Senator on Thursday, January 22, 2009 at 6:58 am

I myself am struggling with this issue as I will turn 50 (as they say that is the ultimate F-word) in May and also can hardly believe how fast time goes by. But, I find myself thinking more and more about what my life will be like when my children are adults, and how I might want to use and enjoy that time. Susan, in my opinion here are some positives for you: both your parents are still alive, and since you had children at such a young age, you have many years to do whatever you want with the rest of your life. I had my youngest just a few months shy of turning 40 and my oldest (twins) just turned 12 and I do regret not having them when I was younger. As far as Nat goes, it sounds like he is doing exactly what every other 19 year old is doing or should be doing and would you really want it any other way?

— added by Sharon L. on Thursday, January 22, 2009 at 10:34 am

LMAO!!!!!!!!!! That reminded of me and my sister too!! We used to sit down with a bag of salt and vinegar potato chips and each of us would lay out a paper towel on the table. We would then meticulously lick off the salt and vinegar from each chip and place each soggy flimsy chip onto the towel. About 1/2 an hour later we would then eat the unsalted/previously licked chip! It was almost like a double snack!!!

🙂 Lisa / Ayla
Maple, Ontario

— added by Anonymous on Saturday, January 24, 2009 at 1:55 pm

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